Post-natal Depression

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The power of healing, nutritional support and sleep is so vital in the recovery or prevention of postnatal depression. I am here to guide and support you in reclaiming balance and happiness in your post-natal period so that you can actually enjoy parenting and your family. I use my own journey of post-natal depression wrapped up with years of experience as a Spiritual Midwife, Healing Practitioner and my healing modality called The Diamond Gateways of Healing™ to remove your negative feelings. I offer support in the home or over the phone.

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My experience

When my baby was about 9 months old I started to have negative thoughts about him, I started to catch myself shaking him and screaming at him to shut up, to go to sleep, to get out of my face and go away.

 

One particular day I went walking with him, I was tired and emotional, my thoughts where erratic, dark and scary… I walked past a wombat hole and all I could think of was shoving him down the wombat whole and walking away. I thought if I put him in the wombat hole my life would go back to normal and I could just get on with things. This scared the shit out of me and the deep mother guilt that followed depressed me further. All the while I was pretending to my friends and family that I was ok and somehow I kept pulling myself together and soldiering on. 

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It wasn’t until I went to visit my mother 3 months later that my depletion and exhaustion hit rock bottom and my thoughts took a dive. Postnatal depression scared me I was so paranoid that I was going to get it and for good reason - my own Mum had undergone severe psychosis, hospitalisation and shock treatment when I was 8 years old. I was so triggered staying at my mother’s house, my worse nightmare was playing itself out. In the middle of the night I would be up pacing, thinking of killing my children and myself, I was literally pulling my hair out. There was so many times where I thought about booking myself into the psychiatric hospital but I was ashamed and terrified of what this might look like.

 

Then I remembered the healing modalities that I had been taught, one by one I just started removing each feeling I had. This stabilised me enough to get home but I still wasn’t right. All I could think of was sleep, I was tired and broken to the core. 

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When I got home I plucked up the courage to speak to my husband and told him that I needed help. This was so difficult because my husband and I had been fighting and had many unresolved issues at the time. However, something deep in my husband was unleashed and he leaped into action making me a doctor’s appointment. The doctor was not my usual doctor, which made it really difficult to relate to her. I was very withdrawn and disconnected. The doctor wanted to put me on anti-depressants and put me in hospital for two weeks for a ‘rest’. She booked me a skype session with a psychiatrist who told me what was wrong with me, told me how to parent and never once asked me my story or how I was feeling. This session sparked so much anger in me, which ignited my journey to recovery. I got in the car and I said to my husband that I am not going to hospital, that I wanted to try healing without anti-depressants and that I will never see that psychiatrist again.

 

Later, I rang my Theta Healing Teacher and had a healing session. One core thing that came out of this session was that I had taken on my mother’s depression, I had learnt to absorb only the negative things in life and that I had signed a contract to take on her darkness. Once this was healed I felt ¾ better. The next step I took was to deal with my lack of sleep. My husband took my baby at night so I could sleep. This was a difficult letting go for me as I was still breastfeeding and I felt so guilty and feared that I would leave my son with severe emotional scaring. I booked an appointment with a naturopath who addressed my low iron, adrenal fatigue, low vitamin B and my low thyroid function. She said that I was so adrenally depleted that I had started to deplete my thyroid. She placed me on supplements and within a month I felt like a new woman. This is not to say that I did not need to do anymore work on myself in fact it took several months to normalise and I am certain that without doing healing work I would have needed to be on anti-depressants and go to hospital. 

 

It took months, but eventually I was healed of my post-natal depression and able to be there for myself and my family once more.
 

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