My journey of healing to finding my purpose

My personal journey…

Most of my healing journey has been about accessing the truth and what was real in amongst narcissistic relationships and sexual abuse that convinced me that I was the problem and that I was the liar. I spent so much time trying to prove that I was an honest truthful person that I forgot to live.

It took a major Saturn-return experience for me to connect with myself in a way that I did not know was possible. During this time I found the missing link, the healing modalities that I had been looking for to bridge the gap between my love of the the outdoors and dance. This Saturn return experience involved the passing of one of the loves of my life. Two months after our engagement he had a psychotic episode. Filled with demons he had three suicide attempts within a year and unfortunately, he eventually took his life despite my efforts to keep him alive.

Stripped to my absolute core and grief ridden and suicidal myself, I picked myself up and decided that I had three choices...1) I could continue to drag myself through the cutter, 2) I could commit suicide too, or 3) I could have courage and tackle my own demons and heal myself. During this time I found a wonderful healer… Issy… She was trained in the modaility of Body Transformation. She took me through a series of sessions helping me to peel back my layers of grief and in the process uncovered many core issues and belief systems. Thanks to Body Transformation I was able to move through these issues smoothly, gently and also pretty fast. I was so impressed with the work I went on to do my training which continued to open up doors for me.

I had spent a long time not trusting my own organic knowledge. I had looked for external validation and acknowledgement most of my life before making decisions. I had waited for acknowledgement from others before I could acknowledge anything myself. I had spent a lot of time acknowledging others instead of acknowledging my own gifts. I had hid these gifts from most people out of fear of being judged. I had down-played what I do, who I am. I played the victim to avoid stepping up.

I began to integrate my whole loving self, and began my life as a wife, a mother, and eventually as a dance facilitator. Life was improving, moving on, and though I was continually working on my healing, was beginning to really see and believe in myself.

Then, during my focused attention to become either a 5Rhythms teacher/Open Floor teacher, I surprisingly discovered that I was pregnant with my third child. It threw me into a spin… the decision to have my beloved son meant my purpose was again in question.

I was approximately 5months pregnant, when a voice came to me in the early hours of the morning and said "Get up and write." This contunued to happen throughout my pregnancy, and it was during this time that I downloaded/channelled this revolutionary new healing information, The Diamond Gateways of Healing™. This is now what I have to offer the world